Tuesday, June 27, 2006

All Of Me.

Welcome to my blog. I should have told you about it earlier but I thought it would be nice to surprise you with it after we're married so that you know for sure that I've loved you from the day we met. I played it in my mind many times. You and I surfing the net one evening and I'd say something like, 'Do you know that I've written about you in a blog?' You'd go something like, 'You wrote about me?' And I'd say, 'Yes, lemme show you.'

And you'd read Bergentest.blogspot.com to know me better.

I was wrong to figure that your family would accept me as is. A guy who doesn't even know who his mother is. Or who is father is. Maybe they are right.

Maybe my mommy bundled me up in a box and left me to be discovered by Aunt and Grandma.

How was I supposed to know it mattered to them. And it mattered to you too.

I'm sorry.
There's nothing I can do about it.

I am truly sorry.


Knowing you was the best thing that ever happened in my life...

27 Comments:

Blogger AuntyN said...

I am so, so very sorry. :-(

4:42 PM  
Blogger Kak Teh said...

sometimes, its best to know and loved then not to know and not to have loved at all.

4:42 PM  
Blogger Adah said...

Ala Mr.Bergen, I'm so sorry..isk..isk..isk..

4:45 PM  
Blogger ubisetela said...

NOOOO!!!!

Sorry to hear that, sir :(

*sad*

5:16 PM  
Blogger k.d said...

Oh Bergen..I'm truly sorry for you. I hope she gets to know you as we all did and see the kind of person you are. I think you can't change your past or who your parents are but you are the one who made yourself be who you are. Do you get me? I mean it's you that made you become the person you are now. And I think that's more important coz even if you come from a good background tapi perangai macam hantu buat apa.

Well, that's my opinion and opinions of a few of my girlfriends le. I wish you well Bergen in life and in love.

5:29 PM  
Blogger EdRyNA said...

:-(

5:39 PM  
Blogger anedra said...

dont know what to say

*hugs*

5:50 PM  
Blogger anggerik merah said...

:-(

6:05 PM  
Blogger Queen Of The House said...

Another one saying :(
Que sera sera, I guess.

6:17 PM  
Blogger torts said...

so very sorry. we don't know apa tersirat di sebalik kejadian .. but redhalah with ketentuan Tuhan.

9:28 PM  
Blogger Lollies said...

oh dear. this is so sad.

i hope one day they can see beyond that.

5:23 AM  
Blogger Nazrah said...

alaaa...

but fret not,i believe He has a great big fat grandioso fabuloso plan for you. insyaAllah all will be well.

6:15 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Asalamualaikum Bergen: Why does it matter that you don't know who your parents are to them unless they are concerned of the probablity of you being a child that they "discarded" and so they fear incest. I think some people are so silly sometimes about others background. They forget in the eye of Allah what matters most is iman and takwa. But better you find out now than later and having to live with insults. Allah is great - you will meet someone else and better - Insya Allah.

6:35 AM  
Blogger dee3 said...

to be honest... i don't quite get the entry.

first emotion: sadness due to the family and the lady (who matters most) for not being able to accept our en. bergen as who he really is. his past and his present, as well as him striving to the future in real life as well as the blogging world.

then: CONFUSION
THEN it hit me.
he was contemplating of telling her how he loved her since the first day he met her, and would tell her about 'bergen test' this one fine evening (presumably after dinner), and she would begin reading about how he views himself, about his thoughts, his fears, his insecurities, his emotions, his joys, his ups, his downs, his humour, and everything else that makes en. bergen ENCIK BERGEN.

that's the thing about reading. it leaves much to thought and interpretation as well as misinterpretation to the readers.
and that's the thing about blogging and reading blogs. it opens so much interaction, that getting down to the thoughts of the writer (blogger) is much easier in order to be able to comprehend the situation.

maybe it's just me, who's reading too much into the situation. i've read the entry more than 3 times, and i THINK en. bergen should tell the lady to read the entries on 'bergen test'. it captivated our hearts, and it SHOULD render her heart captive to our en. bergen.

forgive me if i'm wrong or too analytical... and for this being an extremely long comment.

but whatever the case, kalau nak, buatlah cara nak... if first you don't succeed, try and try again.
up to the extent that you have exhausted all resources (not monetary resources la, that'd be foolish). at the very least, you HAD tried, and there'll be no regrets later about not trying hard ENOUGH.

again, am so sorry for her loss.
and you en. bergen, has us united behind you in our support.
dari seorang adik, have faith :)

9:05 AM  
Blogger tee said...

sir berg, sure there's a blessing in disguise. Only Allah knows what is best for u.

i know u are strong inside... :)

9:07 AM  
Blogger thinktankgal said...

I am so sorry to read this.....

10:56 AM  
Blogger Restless said...

Kadang2 it's not the gurl yg buat hal.

It's the parents who place such great importance of lineage purity and clarity. They emphasise on the need to know who are the parents of the man their daughter is marrying with.

Don't beat yourself up!

11:02 AM  
Blogger pu1pu3 said...

Too sad to write..sniff sniff...
Be strong.

12:54 PM  
Blogger Din Teksi said...

hang in there my good man

1:23 PM  
Anonymous married with children said...

Dear Bergen,

Kadang-kadang apa yang kita inginkan sangat-sangat bukanlah yang terbaik untuk kita and kadang-kadang apa yang kita benci adalah yang terbaik untuk kita>Allah knows the best and ujian dari Allah sentiasa ada hikmahnya..All the best..once I was in your shoes:be strong...pray to Allah cos HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR US

1:44 PM  
Blogger ailin...in aalborg said...

You can always do what I did. But of course, that's not always the best way to start a marriage.

3:17 PM  
Blogger Em said...

Ola

Im sorri...

8:04 PM  
Blogger marina said...

Dearest Bergen Sir,

I am sad that things do not turn out as you had hoped for. But God has His own mysterious ways of doing things.

At least you've tried. And that's what is important.

You have also rediscovered your ability to love again. I think that's worth all the trouble.

Happiness is not without any heartaches. Love is not without tears and frustrations.

It is what life is all about.

And despite all that, it is still a life worth living...

8:47 PM  
Blogger Sayuti said...

dee3, thank you for that comment. i almost take this post straight-forwardly.

sir bergen, please confirm what dee3 commented. in case its not like dee3 thought it is, do ponder upon this quote that i often used in situations like this:

"dont cry cause its over, smile cause it happened"

9:14 PM  
Blogger Learned Monkey said...

sir bergen,

at this point, i can only offer you virtual hugs.

*hugs*

i'm sorry to hear that.

11:11 AM  
Blogger UglyButAdorable said...

berg...am so sorry to hear that. I guess masih ada lagi human species jenis nie. Allah has plan for all..insya allah you'll have yours soon.

4:31 PM  
Blogger les miserable said...

uuhhhh...

truth rrreally hurtss

4:20 PM  

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