Friday, July 13, 2007

I'll Never Stop Loving You.

You don't have to know that I waited until the plane disappeared into the clouds.
When it did, I know better that I'll never see you again. Or think of you again. But deep inside there's a part of me that won't let you go even though the plane is now gone and I'm driving home to the apartment. The apartment you and me did all our loving, laughing and teasing. And fighting, until it got so bad we had to make a decision to stop talking to each other so that we could lead a separate life, to move on, to catch up on things we had put on hold in order to fall in love. And now that we are all out of love and find out it was all for nothing but a hoax, one big bubble that won't hold out long enough in the rain, I don't think it's a good idea to analyze what went wrong. You know better that I don't have the brain for it, you told me that a million times that I took it as the part of me you had to live with long enough until you discovered a man ain't much of a man if he can't even discuss Ibsen or Pinter or people like that. And so I took up two shifts, cutting meat or spending my time in the kitchen of a chef who taught me a thing or two about how to boil an egg. It was then that you realised you married a wrong guy. You wanted someone to discuss things but what you got was a butcher with a collection of German knives you find repulsive because you didn't see the point why men go to war and you hated this guy named Ronald Reagan.
We became different after being too similar. But that's how it is. People change. I married you because I had thought it was the right thing to do. You were so right. How was I to know it could turn out so wrong. Of course there was no way of knowing it would go this way.
No, Catherine, I don't have any regrets. I'm glad things happened that way. Maybe I'll see you again. Or maybe I won't. But that doesn't really matter because once upon a time, we were so in love. I know that I did. And I like to believe that you loved me too. This is enough for me to move on. To live day by day knowing that once in my life a woman called Catherine took my heart away and never gave it back.

29 Comments:

Blogger demonsinme said...

Master Bergen:

"We became different after being too similar. But that's how it is. People change. I married you because I had thought it was the right thing to do. You were so right. How was I to know it could turn out so wrong. Of course there was no way of knowing it would go this way."

I like this phrase. How similarity, though at first attracts and bind, will one day distance ourself from each other.

It restrenghthened my believe how great and mysteriously God works - He created different polars to attract and hold each ends of a magnet stroger than those of the same polars.

And funny, it works not only in love but, also in alnost everything in this world.

Don't stop loving Master Bergen. Don't ever.

1:09 AM  
Blogger tokasid said...

Salam Bergen:

This piece reminded me of Sohaimi Mior Hassan's song in the 80s Epilog Cinta dari Bromlry. They song with: Aduhai Cathy.....

Well sir, I guess your jodoh with Catherine sampa situ saje.Maybe, just maybe that was best for both of you.But you are right,no matter what happened that love you had for her will always be there. I think its best just to think about the good times you had with her.
Have a nice weekend ,sir.

2:19 AM  
Blogger boxxTomoi said...

Dear Sir,
Last night I whisper this to my wife:
"If I ever get to heaven, all I want is someone just like you.”

Yess I got great reward for that!

Enjoy your weekend.

12:31 PM  
Anonymous elviza said...

Sigh.

Dear Bergen,

You know, I paced my library up and down wishing that I can come up with something constructive to give you.

Well, that was this morning. Now it's already 10.30 p.m. and I have tucked my son in bed. Still, words failed me.

I could write on and on about love. I read about it extensively. I even did some research on it. I talked to my friends about it but I am none the wiser. Often, I am just a victim.

So, can I just give you a hug instead?

* Hug Hug Hug - and lastly, one beary super squeezy hug for my brother Bergen*

10:32 PM  
Blogger Nak Tak Nak said...

Oh, how I know how it feels. You want to know whats the best thing? There's no medicine for this accept time.

12:26 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Been there. done that. But time is, still, the best healer.

You take care, sir.

9:36 AM  
Blogger Fauziah Ismail said...

Salam Bergen
Its never easy mending a broken heart.

10:12 AM  
Blogger maklang said...

Lama tak ke mari. Hope everything is Ok now...

Take care...

11:43 AM  
Anonymous toykin said...

It isn't easy to go through what you are going through right now. For the one you love, would not be the one you will be with forever.

But look at it this way.

You are now closer to the ONE.

1:14 AM  
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10:41 AM  
Blogger dee3 said...

dear sir,

[quote] To live day by day knowing that once in my life a woman called Catherine took my heart away and never gave it back. [unquote]

doesnt that sentence about taking the heart away describes love? heartrending.
am a novice in love.

salam.

10:42 AM  
Anonymous elviza said...

Bergen, are you okay? Janganlah senyap2 lama sangat. Semua orang risau nanti

3:35 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!"

Source Unknown

6:09 PM  
Anonymous E said...

"love is a many splendid things"

8:22 PM  
Blogger NBB said...

pegi le minum secawan teh. mudah-mudahan ok le mood tu sikit.

8:33 AM  
Blogger Cosmic_GurL said...

Such a sad post...but things will get better, right? Sometimes the best thing we can do is to let go...

5:10 PM  
Blogger ms shah said...

sometimes you don't let go because you don't want to. you have already lost that person that the only thing you have to hold on to is the memories of that person. it's the only way you could still feel close to them, making yourself believe, 'Hey, maybe, just maybe, things could turn out better soon if I believe in this long enough.'

it's never easy to let go of someone you love, but it helps to remember them sometimes.

my heart goes out to you, Mr. Bergen. **hugs**

6:30 PM  
Blogger Monster Mom said...

Gday mate! The one true love is thy love to god... no matter what happens... god is there for u!

have a nice life mate!

4:09 PM  
Blogger demonsinme said...

Master Bergen:

No comments, just a gift for you to give to your loved ones.

DARLING

Neither diamonds nor golden rings,
even crowns of a king,
or the breasts of queen,
shall mend this lonely sting,
if you whom my heart sing,
hid like the moon in morning,
and shy like the sun in the evening,
leaving me forever yearning,
for the kiss from the one I call darling.

2:04 AM  
Blogger The Ancient Mariner said...

We all have our sad stories.

When the 'fire of love' has burn out, the trick is not to roll in the ashes ... but to start another fire.

5:29 AM  
Blogger Nak Tak Nak said...

Hey, u been away for a wee bit too long, don't u think so?

11:22 AM  
Blogger Pak Idrus said...

Bergen, Our very existence is because of Love. We are made for Love, We enjoy Love, We hate to loose Love but most of all enjoy making love. Once the cupid struck everyone goes blind, for Love is blind and only the lovers see the same things. And enjoy every moments and minutes, care less of the world around it. There are beautiful times, colorful times, painful times. Love is a treasure. Once we get hook, even in parting we could never end it. It is still there and would continue to be there forever and ever. Have a nice day.

4:56 PM  
Blogger zabs said...

Salam Kenal Bergen,
Yes, it is good to be here, a lot of interesting read. Will come back for more. TQ.

10:10 AM  
Blogger Pootz in Boots said...

They say Time Heals. Perhaps.... but all this experiences make us stronger and make our life worth living. Hang in there... it will take time.... it if still burdens your soul after 10 years, so be it.... I still mourn the failed relationship(s)....

7:19 PM  
Blogger AuntieYan @ Makcik Blogger said...

"When you're in love,don't give all your heart away...spare part it to yourself....so, they say..."

4:31 PM  
Blogger NJ said...

Hallo Bergen Sir,

Hope everything is OK. Do come back to entartain us your faithful readers will ya.

11:53 AM  
Anonymous podgykat said...

Hey, Bergen, now it's my turn to inquire - are you alright there??? come back soon, will you? Take care, wherever you are..

9:41 AM  
Blogger bergen said...

Greetings, everyone!

Thank you for visiting. You be sure to have a nice day now, y'hear?

10:12 AM  
Blogger MsLoco said...

Instead of taking good notes, i started to wonder if my BF feels the same about his EX... But then again, he must really loves me for being by my side for 4 years now... compares to dat 2 years of failed relationship he had wit his EX... They had so many similarities but fought alot, we have nothing in common but we clicked... Arghhh LOVE... who can u'std LOVE..

11:25 PM  

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